If you had to pick one aspect of your Crohn's that is the worst, most debilitating thing what would you choose - "PAIN"? "LETHARGY"? "DIARRHOEA"? Some other physical aspect? There could be many more suggestions as each of us is affected by this disease in different ways.
Maybe you'd choose one of the psychological aspects "STRESS" or "DEPRESSION". My nomination? I'll go for "UNCERTAINTY", on four levels. It's a state of mind that is very difficult to break free from and becomes engrained into one's thinking and planning. (This is a bit of a recurring theme as you will see if you've read some of my past posts)
Short term - the day-to-day, sometimes hour-to-hour question - is my digestive system going to behave or will I be dashing off to find the nearest bathroom. I might have been fine for months but there is always that nagging doubt which can turn to anxiety, especially going on a long journey by public transport, and then it becomes self-perpetuating. I've tried "mind over matter" - it doesn't always work. Distraction is my best ally but not always easy to achieve.
..and of course this is followed by the "what's caused this" question - have I eaten something dodgy? ; is it a bug I've picked up? ; or am I having a flare? If it lasts more than a couple of days it could be flare-up territory which leads to....
Medium term - dealing with the flare-up and what follows. Hitting it with a high dosage of steroids seems to be the chosen way but then you have to deal with their side effects. Could last a few days or a few weeks. Could mean time off of work. But if the flare-up doesn't improve...
Long term - as I have found out, the drugs can stop working and surgery beckons. Having had surgery once I was hoping I wouldn't need it again. Wrong. So lurking in the background there is always that possibility of needing further operations and the disruption that entails.
(You may be lucky and never need to go under the knife, it's down to how your Crohn's is affecting you - the extent, location, severity, response to drugs etc.)
Ending - a while back I asked my consultant what my ultimate prognosis was. Should I expect my lifespan to be reduced by Crohn's. He considered the list of conditions I've ended up with and said "It won't be the Crohn's that kills you!" Well that was reassuring - for about a second.
I would characterise my view of Crohn's by saying that it adds further layers of uncertainity to the usual ones we call life. I've managed to bury three of the layers quite deeply and they only surface when I'm writing something like this post. I really don't wander around with a mind full of thoughts of flare-ups or surgery. The one that I just can't bury is the misbehaviour of my digestive system although an extra capsule of Loperamide can help! Bring me some "Certainty".
Proactive. You Decide
Has this happened to you? You go to see your consultant and at the end of the appointment they say "I think you should get your bloods done" or some other test that involves taking a sample and then having it analysed. You then wait until your next appointment to discuss the results. This could be weeks or months.....or even worse you get a call to say you need to be seen straight away.
I would rather get the relevant test(s) done just prior to the appointment so the results are current and the (anxious) wait to discuss them is reduced to a minimum. I put this to my consultant at the end of the last appointment in December. He agreed that it made sense to let me decide if and when I needed tests and this was especially relevant due to my ongoing concern about the ache in my side and unpredictable guts. He printed off the forms needed for calprotectin and blood tests (Liver Profile, CRP and a Full Blood Count). It's then been down to me to have the tests done in time for my scheduled appointment (23rd June) or sooner if my symptoms start to get worse.
Missing in Action
The ache (see previous posts) has been getting a lot more persistent so I chose to have the calprotectin test done at the beginning of May, earlier than I needed for my appointment. I really wanted to know if the Crohn's monster has re-awoken.
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The response came quickly. It started "Rather distressingly..." at which point my heart sank and I feared the worst, but it continued "...there is no record of it on the system". Sigh of relief and then surprise given that I had personally delivered to the lab. I went onto the internet to see if there was a helpline and this is what I found :
"Viapath, formed in 2009, is majority owned by the NHS, with the commercial freedom to invest in growth and innovation. A joint venture between Guy's and St Thomas' and King's College Hospital NHS Foundation Trusts, and Serco PLC - we aim to set the standard for the future of pathology."
SERCO???? Was this some early, "back door" privatisation? The Viapath website had a link entitled "Ask Our CEO". Let's try it. I "asked" him if he could track down my test results. The next day I got a response from Customer Support saying that they were looking into the matter and then a little later on a further email telling me that they had tracked down the results! So that's all good, except "they didn't know where to send them", which was rather a feeble excuse given the paperwork that accompanied the sample. I can't believe they would carry out a test without knowing where to send the bill.
Seven days had passed since my initial enquiry and I still didn't have the results. Time to try a different tack. Have Viapath got a Twitter account? Yes. That's handy, I'll try this :
|Tweets to and from Viapath|
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Disclaimer: This is written based on my Crohn's, the way it deals with me and I deal with it. We all suffer in our own way, your experience may be totally different from mine.